The incredible heavyness of work...

It's incredible how every day I go into work thinking that I am going to be able to focus on getting one or two things done and then, at the end of the day, find that I have not completed anything. I think this happens to a large number of people as often as it happens to me (at least I hope it does or I'm really doing something wrong). All it takes is one or two e-mails, I don't usually get many phone calls first thing in the morning, that I didn't expect and then, BAM!!, I am off and running in a totally different direction, never being able to circle back around to what I originally set out to accomplish for the day. It has gotten to the point that I now expect this as a regular part of my day.

Working day in and day out like this has made me unsatisfied at work. I never seem to get a sense of accomplishment since I never feel like I am ever able to finish anything. So much left undone, so many more things to move onto and not finish. In seems like it will never end.

My boss tends to be a perfectionist and an idealist at the same time. She thinks about every little detail that should be done in an ideal environment and then continues to redo and analyze it to the point that she often comes back around to where she began, this creating a never ending circle that seems like it will never end.

You should do everything to the very best of your ability and to the point where you are proud to show it to others is her new mantra. I always have the feeling that we never really finish what we are doing and then one day she comes in and decides that we are done and we need to move on to the next thing. In the meantime, I'm left with a number of more unfinished documents, spreadsheets and presentations that, at the time, we absolutely had to have to get the project done.

Don't get me wrong, I like the things I get to work on. I just want to be able to say that I got something done.